No More Decisions

When we had our baby girl,  I suddenly realized how many decisions I'd face daily in taking care of her, even from her first day of life. That was something I hadn't considered until she was here. 

Even as early as my third trimester, I was thinking ahead to the next baby. :) Beginning a bit later in life, we both feel there's no time to waste. Even so, I want time to stand still so I can enjoy and savor each day with this baby before another comes along. 

From one day to the next, I vacillate, wanting another baby as soon as the Lord will bless us with one and then wanting to dig my heels in to say no more babies. It's a strange thing to go through right now because I know each child God gives is a blessing, a gift, so why not welcome each and every one He will give as quickly as He will provide another? 

Then, I look at this sweet baby girl and selfishly, I want to keep our special little bond and tiny world here at home as long as possible. Another little one would draw my attention away and there's no doubt I'd begin missing things. I'm scattered enough as it is without another little one drawing me away. 

What helps me as my thoughts wander, thinking about what I want and what may happen in the future, it gives me peace to know the decision is not up to me. God always chooses when and to whom He will bring life. I can trust Him to bring another baby into our lives if and when it is for our good. In the meantime, I'm making the most of the days Maddy and I have together, undistracted. 

Her first snow!