Fullness of Life

Have you ever looked back at what your life used to be and felt so very thankful you are not now where you once were? It surprises me sometimes when I feel that deep feeling of relief that God chose to move me from where I was, as a single person in full-time ministry, to being a wife and discipler. 

When I look back, I remember those days and what they were like, the people I worked with, the atmosphere I was in, the demands and when I imagine how this year could be another of that same old thing, I feel relief. Deep relief.

It doesn't matter that when I was there it was where I was supposed to be. It doesn't matter that God used me to bless others and blessed me in the midst of it. It doesn't matter that I am forever changed, much better for the experiences I had there. It is no longer where I am supposed to be and as I reflect upon it, I feel it deep in my soul.

It amazes me sometimes at how God can so completely change our hearts. A place I loved. A place I never wanted to leave. A ministry I always wanted to be a part of and saw as a distinct part of my future. The life I lived then that was so full, now holds nothing for me. It is past and I am deeply grateful. 

With a new path before me, life is still full. I am where I'm supposed to be and this is all I want. God is the One who makes this possible. Fullness of life. Even in the changing of seasons. God is so good in the way He blesses us.