Giddy Girl

Matt and I have been married now for a year and a half. Some days I find myself simply giddy with excitement over him. For some of you who married in your early to mid-twenties, you may think that's normal for the newlywed stage of marriage. Uh...we're not that young :)

Since we've been married, I've been grateful for Matt. I've been warmly affectionate towards him. I've been excited about him, but I didn't enter marriage giddy with excitement. Eagerness, yes. Overjoyed, yes. Stars in the eyes giddy, not so much. There's nothing wrong with that, it's just how it was for us. In fact, I think it was a very good thing. It wasn't an emotions without reason kind of joining. We knew one another, were comfortable together, enjoyed each other, looked forward to beginning our lives together, but it wasn't replete with giddy excitement.

I suppose that's part of what makes me laugh at myself sometimes now. It's been fun growing together in the last year and a half. I can't even describe to you the difference in such a short time. We're very good together. 

What I've noticed lately, is that sometimes I get SO excited about him that I behave like a teenager. I find the excitement just bursts forth in silly non-verbals (like bumping my shoulder to his as we stand side-by-side or dancing a silly jig) and I can even feel the gleam in my eyes as I look at him and flash a broad smile (and do things like whisper something in his ear and giggle). The scary part: I don't care who sees me. :-D 

It reminds me of a silly teen excited over her new boyfriend. (Note to self: That can be awkward for your husband if that happens in the church service during the greeting time. Act your age. Don't embarrass him.) There are probably several other typically youthful things I do that I don't even realize, but it's come to me gradually over time as we've grown ever closer.

This giddiness is something I've just begun to notice and often it springs up right after we've talked and connected emotionally. Sometimes it happens after an especially fun trip, having enjoyed a lot more time together than usual. Sometimes it just seems to happen suddenly for no apparent reason, except that I've been dwelling on the wonderful things about him and our relationship.

One morning last week, I woke up feeling edgy. Something that NEVER happens; it was weird. It took me a while to get up and in the swing of things. After finishing my normal routine, I waited for Matt to come down to go to work. Matt gave me a big hug right before walking out of the door, but that was only his first trip to the truck. (Normally I get my hug before the second and final trip out.) When he came back for the rest of his things, I got another big, long hug. Then, I found myself giddy-happy. Gleam in the eye. Smile from ear to ear. Already ready for him to come home. At that moment, I didn't know why or where that came from. Now I do. I'm an affection person (love languages) and my husband had just given me a huge dose of affection compared to the norm. My "love tank" overflowed and giddy poured out. haha

So, for those of you past the youthful giddiness of marriage, beware: I may not be through it for a while. And since I really don't care, you might be embarrassed (for me?) to see it ;)